Booooriiinnnnngg. Yup. That's how I describe my life right now. A week to go before I finish my practical Yay!!! ^_^ and tommorow I'm off to Redang Island for a so called "work trip" which was also planned for us trainees for all the hard work (yeah right!...).

Life's pretty crappy right now. Just when I thought I was the only one, some people I know who are also in relationships are facing problems of their own. But why must there be sadness in the mids of happiness?.

I have learned to move on, despite 2 years 5 months and 9 days (I've sure been counting alright) of being single, I just have to say that It's as if I don't deserve to be loved anymore.

I've quit. I don't trust love. I don't have faith and yes, love at first sight or internet love or whatever you love sick people go through is Bullcrap.

Mind me for being angry about my love life, but it's not possibly the best thing that's ever happened to me. Till then, I just have to wait.....

Maybe I'll end up single for 3 or 4 years, maybe I'll just turn gay....

don't forget to visit the long awaited Ashraf Ishak

Thanks.


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soulshyne

I know now what I want in life. I was talking to a friend on the phone, and being depressed at the moment I read something to her. It was apoem in malay.

She thought it was good. I thought I was inspired. And then it struck me in the head. Why have I not been writting in my own language?. It's not that I don't....i do; but there's not much of it tho.

Why should English be a first language (Other then the fact that everyone understands it) when we should be more proud of our own languange. Look at how proud the French and the Italian people are. Even the Indonesians with their beautiful language of poetry.

So that's where the missing link was.....

Eventhough I don't write write well, there was always an alternative to write in my own mother tounge. Hey, this doesn't mean that I'm quitting English for good. I've always wondered why I've not been inspired when it was there all along......

It's definate that I'm publishing my poems not under the name of soulshyne, but under who I am....Ashraf


Check out my malay writtings and poems at:-

Ashraf Ishak




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ashraf

Hey kunis. was just wondering. have you ever thought about marriage?. I know this sounds weird but I have. This might sound stupid, but lately I've been thinking about having kids and how it feels like being a dad. It's one hell of a responsibility, I know. it sux even more to know you don't have anyone to be with. Even when the person loves you so much sometimes we are blinded by this thing in front of us...like a wall. If I had a chance, I'd probably get married to you. That's because to me you're the only one in my eyes that I see. I love kids. That's because they're so much easier to please. I want them to have your eyes, your lips and your smile. This is not an easier way out. Sometimes our heart says something different from what we feel. My heart says I should be with you.......



sorry lah ash u are not my taste


Yup. That's a definate ouch!. I'm not mad at her tho. I was the one who dumped her anyway, I was the asshole. Yeah, My karma's getting worst. Not only have I been single for two years, in that 2 years more shit has happened then those times I was in love.


I deserve this shit......

Guess what I sent in tiday....don't know if this would get to her tho........

Hey kunis. was just wondering. have you ever thought about marriage?. I know this sounds weird but I have. This might sound stupid, but lately I've been thinking about having kids and how it feels like being a dad. It's one hell of a responsibility, I know. it sux even more to know you don't have anyone to be with. Even when the person loves you so much sometimes we are blinded by this thing in front of us...like a wall. If I had a chance, I'd probably get married to you. That's because to me you're the only one in my eyes that I see. I love kids. That's because they're so much easier to please. I want them to have your eyes, your lips and your smile. This is not an easier way out. Sometimes our heart says something different from what we feel. My heart says I should be with you.......


Damn....

My ex girlfriend sent me this at my Myspace account....

hey there..! thanks 4 the sms..so sweet of u.. i dont know y but it seems like i am no longer in ur friend's list so what's up with that? r we still friends or what?

So I replied.....

Hey Kunis. Yes, your no longer in my friends list. I've tried my best to get you back for so many times, ever since we broke up but I always end up failing. Its best I forget about you cause it only breaks my heart to know you are already in a relationship. I'm not mad at you, I'm happy that your happy and you should be too. So forget about me, forget everything that happened between us, I understand you want me out of your life. So here's to our last goodbye. I hope you'll forever be happy with him. Please don't make the same mistakes I did......Take care and may Allah bless you with a beautiful life ahead.....

.ashraf.

I hate this feeling.......

*disclaimer:- We actually didn't fight after that. We talked about it and we're friends. She just wants to see how things goes afterwards. I might get back with her....If I'm lucky enough.